i. am. embarrassed.
it wasn't as bad
but then it was bad in another sense
they just made me feel very. guilty.
sigh

can you just stop this hide and seek game
maybe i was wrong after all
maybe they DID care
and they are caring more than i expected
and that is NOT a good thing
oh well
i dont think you even know that im talking about you

the feeling isn't gone..
in fact it just went even deeper in
but then..
the hatred and jealousy is gone now..
and i guess that is a good thing.
i shouldn't have those feelings in the first place.

i dont think you know what im talking about